Merry Christmas!

For my devoted reader(s),

Today I am getting ready for our girl to COME HOME!

 

That means cleaning, and folding laundry, and

 

COOKING! 

 

So, because I love you so . . . My gift to you is this awesome, DECADENT Cinnamon Roll recipe.  You are welcome. And I'm sorry. 

 

Amazing Cinnamon Rolls

This recipe is a combination of Tupperware Bread, Paula Dean’s Cinnamon Roll Recipe, and a variation of the Cinnabon Frosting recipe. It’s incredibly decadent so don’t make it if you are counting calories, fat grams, carbs, or ANYTHING.  I don’t know how you would make it without a “thatsa bowl” from Tupperware

                                                                          

Ingredients:

Dough:                            Filling:                                       Glaze:

10 – 11 cups AP flour      1 ½ cups butter                         2 sticks margarine         

1 ½ cups milk                 2 cups light brown sugar            1 block cream chs

1 ½ cups water               4 Tbsp ground cinnamon           1 pound powdered sugar

4 eggs                             ¾ cup raisins (for half)               1 tsp lemon juice

2/3 cups sugar                                                                  1 tsp vanilla extract

2 tsp salt                                                                                     

4 ½ tsp yeast

2 sticks unsalted butter

Yield: 2 9x12 pans and one 8x4 bread pan of cinnamon rolls.                               

1.       Put 9 c flour in large Tupperware bowl. Make a well in the center, set aside.

2.       Scald 1 ½ c milk and cool with 1 ½ c water.  Don’t start the next step while you do this because it needs to cool while you do the next step.

3.       In a medium bowl beat 4 eggs, and then add 2/3 c sugar, 2 t salt and 2 pkgs. yeast (4 ½ t).  Mix thoroughly, and then add scalded milk.

4.       Pour liquid into well of flour.  DO NOT STIR!!!

5.       Seal, burp, and wait until seal pops.

6.       After seal pops, melt 2 sticks butter and pour into bowl.  Stir everything up, adding 1-2 c more flour to make thick but still sticky consistency. Seal, burp, and wait until seal pops again.

7.       Knead out all the air. 

8.       Refrigerate overnight.

9.       Divide into two. 

10.    Roll dough out to about 14” x 8”.

11.    Melt 1 ½ cups of real butter.

12.    Put about ¼ cup of butter in bottom of 12x9x2 pan

13.    Put about ½ cup of butter on rolled out dough.

14.    Mix 2 cups of brown sugar with 4 tsp cinnamon.

15.    Sprinkle some of this mixture in bottom of pan.

16.    Spread about ¾ cups of this mixture on dough.

17.    Sprinkle nuts on cinnamon if desired.

18.    Roll tightly

19.    Cut into 1” slices

20.    Place in pan close together.

21.    Repeat steps 10-20 in another 12x9 pan

22.    You may also need a bread pan for any cinnamon rolls that are left.  Repeat butter and cinnamon mixture on the bottom of this pan as well.

23.    Allow to rise about 30 minutes.

24.    Bake at 350 for about 30 minutes or until brown.

25.    While rolls are baking, mix 1 cup Margarine with 1 block of cream cheese till well blended.

26.    Slowly add in 1 lb powdered sugar.  After all of the sugar is mixed in, mix for a long time (12 minutes recommended).

27.    When almost done add in 1 tsp lemon juice and 1 tsp vanilla extract.

28.    Slather topping on cinnamon rolls while they are still hot.

 

Warfare in Community

One of the great benefits of community - especially multigenerational community - is the realization that I am not the only one.  My sorrow, my temptation, my wound, is not against me alone; rather I find it is common to man - a part of being a broken person living among broken people on a broken planet. 

This revelation is both a comfort and a chastisement.  I have comrades who have faced my temptation and overcome.  Rather than my sorrow dragging me into self pity, it brings me into the tightly knit ranks of the wounded overcomers where I learn the deep truth that life is both bitterly painful and astoundingly, truly beautiful. 

I not only learn how to stand against the enemy's lies but I learn that I must stand against them, just as my comrades have stood against them - just as they still stand today.  I am welcomed into the battle, where my comrades will fight for me but will also expect me to fight beside them and we will joyfully and tearfully learn to wield our weapons, side by side.

Day Two

Just got the email that she has arrived!

 

The email said

"This is to inform you that your loved one has arrived safely in Pemba without being eaten by wild hogs or carried away by huge roaches. Praying that it continues this way for them:)"

Great sense of humor they have there in Africa ...

 

I'm so excited for her great adventure! Thank you Lord! 

Day One

This is Day One of my girl being gone.  This morning (afternoon there) she arrives in Africa. 

 

Last night at about 10:40 I wondered what time she would get home and remembered that she will get home in 3 months.  3 months.

 

This morning I took a bath in my ridiculously large (and wonderful) bath tub and thought of whether or not she will have water to wash her face tomorrow morning. 

 

Today I carry her in my heart before the Father.  My Abba.  The one who sees us both and knows every need we have before we have it. 

 

And I remind myself that a layed down life happens in Mamas too.

 

He is good.

 

He is worthy of more than I have to give and I have given my best.

 

 

Addendum to my previous post

I just went back to read the John Piper article again and came across this story within a story that I want to share:

" J. Oswald Sanders was going to be in chapel. Eighty-nine years old. Veteran. Great missions leader. And I said to myself, “Shall I go public and risk having to talk to a lot of people and getting dinner engagements and all this stuff and not getting anything done?” But I wanted to hear him, so I snuck into the back of chapel and listened to him. And this 89-year-old man stood up there, and I was just oozing with admiration and desire to be like this when I’m 89. And he told a story that so embodies Colossians 1:24.

He said there was once an evangelist in India who tromped across the roads to various villages preaching the gospel. He was a simple man, no education, loved Jesus with all his heart, and was ready to lay his life down. And he came to a village that didn't have the gospel. It was late in the day and he was very tired. But he goes into the village and lifts up his voice and shares the gospel with those gathered in the square. They mock him, deride him, and drive him out of town. And he was so tired—no emotional resources left—that he lies down under a tree, utterly discouraged. He goes to sleep not knowing if he’ll ever wake up. They might come kill him, for all he knows.

And suddenly, just after dusk, he is startled and wakes up. The whole town seems to be around him looking at him. He thinks he’s a goner. He starts to tremble, and one of the big men in the village says, “We came out to see what kind of man you were, and when we saw your blistered feet we knew you were a holy man. We want you to tell us why you got blistered feet to come talk to us.” So he preached the gospel and, according to J. Oswald Sanders, the whole village believed. That’s what Paul means by “I complete in my sufferings what is lacking in the afflictions of Jesus.”

Now I have one other little parenthesis about J. Oswald Sanders. At 89 years old he said, “I’ve written a book a year since I was 70.” Eighteen books after 70! There are people in my church and all over America quitting on life at 65 and dying on the golf course in Nevada, when they ought to be laying their lives down among the Muslims like Raymond Lull."

Yearning

I am going to try to put some thoughts into words this morning quickly because I have to leave in 30 minutes for the office.  A few thoughts are swirling in my mind this morning.  In my usual ADHD fashion, they seem disjointed and yet there is a common thread running through them.

While my breakfast was cooking in the microwave I picked up my Bible and turned to Isaiah 61.

"The Spirit of the LORD God is upon me, because the LORD has anointed me to preach good news to the poor, he has sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound."

Then I took my breakfast to my bed and finished the t.v. show I was watching last night about a college professor with schizophrenia who helps solve crimes.

After I ate, I read my facebook feed and found this glorious article by John Piper waiting for me. Some quotes from the article:

"I get very tired of people coming to look at staff positions in my church, which is in downtown Minneapolis. We all live in the inner city, and one of the first questions they ask is, “Will my children be safe?” And I want to say, “Would you ask that question tenth and not first?” I’m just tired of hearing that. I’m tired of American priorities. Whoever said that your children will be safe in the call of God?"

" . . . the Moravians. In northern Germany two of them were getting on a boat, ready to sell themselves into slavery in the West Indies, never to come back again. And as the boat drifts out into the harbor they lift their hands and say, “May the Lamb receive the reward of his suffering.” What they meant was that Christ had already bought those people. And they were going to find them by indiscriminately preaching the gospel, through which the Holy Spirit would call them to himself."

 So, here is what I am burning to say this morning (so much that I am writing this instead of blow drying my hair - big sacrifice, I know):

I have ADHD and God is glorified through it because it's how he made me and he has anointed me to preach good news.  Just like the guy on Perception (the t.v. show) whose schizophrenia brings both great suffering and great ability into his life, my weaknesses are given to me by God and I will glory in my weakness today.  I don't want to be safe.  I want to be useful for the Kingdom - the great Kingdom that is coming and is here and will never end.  The Kingdom whose King is so glorious that someday when the sun burns out, we will no longer need the sun because his glory will light our world.

Today I am presented the opportunity to live a laid down life.  To struggle with the missionaries around the world against principalities and powers in my little suburban, comfortable office in one of the 'nicest places to live in America'. God, grant me the burning heart to go where you want me to go and do what you want me to do.  To stay in this uncomfortably comfortable town or to go to dangerous unreached parts of the world - but to stay in your will and bring you glory. 

Ta Dah!!!

 

 

A friend of mine lost everything she owned in the tornadoes in May and it dawned on me about a week later that she might like an afghan for her new house so I contacted a mutual friend and found out her favorite decorating colors.  I'm happy with the chevron look and it was a fun project. 

 

I love crochet! :)

Grieving

Grieving is a funny thing. 

Sometimes it looks like denial.  Surely that didn't just happen.  He didn't say that.  She didn't really go.

Sometimes it is slow and grinding.  Making the days ache painfully by. 

One

Second

At

A

Time

Sometimes it is stabbing pain.

Sometimes it hides it's face and you might believe it is gone.  But no.  It's still there.  Peek. A. Boo.  Hoo.

It's surprising in it's power. 

Sneaky little bastard.

But letting go is part of life. 

And grief is part of letting go.

Letting go of hopes and dreams. 

So that you can embrace here and now.

Made Me Smile

Today in my Facebook newsfeed I had an advertisement with this link:

It cracked me up because anyone who is ordering their graduation announcements right now would be a great customer at my Procrastinator's Store. 

I love it!

My Favorite So Far

I am so excited to show off my latest finished project! 

 

 

About three years ago, I was wandering around Wal-mart looking for garage sale signs and I came upon a book called I Taught Myself To Crochet.  I knew that I would have a little free time while I waited for customers, so I decided to get the book and a skein of yarn.  I hoped that if I could figure it out, I would make the kids something to take to college with them when they left home. 

 

After a conversation with a 10 year old neighbor that helped me figure out what I was doing wrong and a lot of phone calls to my sister, who knits and was also learning to crochet at the time, I spent the first few months making a lot of dish cloths from directions my sister and I found at Chickens in the Road.  At first I kept unintentionally decreasing or increasing and I couldn't figure out how to count the stitches at the beginning of the row.  I'm still not sure I understand all that but most of the time my projects turn out okay these days.  I'd love to say that this was my first dishcloth, but it was probably my tenth and it was still lopsided!

 

 

Those washcloths are the only thing I use now to wash dishes.  They are the perfect combination of pretty and functional, with their ruffly edge and their nubby holes. 

 

Soon after the washcloths, my mother needed some crocheted hats as she fought (and won, PRAISE GOD!) her battle with cancer.  That was a real learning curve and Mom got some lopsided hats that were made with much love. 

 

 

 

Her doctors and nurses usually found my sister or me in her room crocheting away.  It gave us something to do with our hands while we waited and watched and visited and prayed (and worried, if truth be told). 

 

Soon we had a birth to celebrate and I got to make a blanket for this wonderful little boy, which became his favorite, which made my long-distance-great-aunt heart very, very happy.

 

 

Along the way, I have made hats and booties and blankets and prayer shawls and scarves for friends and family.  I made my son a stadium blanket that I'm not thrilled with and plan to remake when he chooses another college soon.   As a matter of fact I have made a lot of things that I'm not thrilled with, but I have also made a lot of things that do thrill me.  I love knowing that something that I made is out there in the world, bringing people happiness and becoming part of the background of their lives. 

 

I think my favorite part of crochet is taking this

 

 

to this

 

 

to this

 

 

until slowly it becomes this

 

 

and before you know it you have something of lasting beauty that will wrap warm, cozy love around the person you were thinking of while you enjoyed yourself, crafting on the sofa. 

 

 

 

(This project was copied from Coco Rose Diaries. I hope that, if she sees this post, she finds it flattering that I copied so closely, rather than irritating. I have always had trouble choosing color combinations that make me happy and I LOVE hers, so I figured copying her colors for a while might train my eye.  Here's hoping!)

The Birthday Blessing Blessing

My amazing husband gave our daughter a wonderful birthday blessing and I thought it might bless you too.  It was the perfect combination of funny and serious and even had a little bit of inside joking, which makes it even more wonderful.  I seriously love that man. 

 

Meagan Micayla Mosier

Meagan means “Pearl”. 

Micayla means “Who is like God”

Mosier means “One who grew and sold vegetable”.  We were kind of stuck with that one. 

Micayla, a real pearl is very rare and very valuable.  It is formed over many years and starts when a foreign substance is introduced into the oyster.  From very early on, you were “foreign”.  You have always been called to things outside of the comfort of the shell that is our family…from wanting to be reborn with “brown skin” when you get to Heaven, to being called to others of different cultures.   Never discontent, but always knowing that your destiny lies outside of “the norm”.  You truly are a “foreigner in a strange land”. 

You are accurately named as “Pearl who is like God”…very rare and valuable.  The proof is in this book and by the presence of those here celebrating with you on your special day.

You are a blessing to others.

-      You are like the rain falling on dry ground.  When you are around, others feel refreshed and replenished by your presence.

You are like a deer - sure-footed in your ways and decisions.

-     You are like the honey badger – you are strong, independent and you don’t care what others think.

Mostly, you are like your mother – Zealous for God, compassionate towards others and selfless in everything.

As you leave adolescence, I bless you.

I bless you as a woman of God.  May His voice always be your guide as you continue to become a Proverbs 31 woman

I bless you in the city and in the field

I bless you in the U.S. and abroad

I bless you with the favor of God

I bless you with the constant friendship and companionship of your Creator.

I bless you as a daughter of the King of Kings

I bless you with His protection

I bless you with the resolve of Ruth

I bless you with the Faith of Mary

I am so very proud of you…who you have been, who you are now and who you are becoming.  You are truly a remarkable young woman.

I love you,

Dad

A Little Bit of Yarn and Thread Fun

About three and a half years ago I had the idea that I would like to crochet an afghan for my children before they moved away for college.  The only problem was that I didn't crochet.  To fix that I bought I Taught Myself to Crochet and ... taught myself to crochet.  With a little help from my ten year old neighbor who learned from her grandma.

Do you remember these from January?

After I changed the mint green to lime green, they became these:

And now they look more like:

 

And soon they will have a ruffly border and be a twin sized bead cover/cozy blankie and they will go with my girl to Colorado for two. whole. months.  Away from me!

WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!  Crying over the girl leaving, not the blankie.  The blankie is supposed to leave me.  The girl is not.  Or maybe she is.  But I don't care.  WAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!

And, as a way to end this entry awkwardly . . . I also made this apron last month.  A girl's gotta brag.  Or this girl does anyway.

 

A Birthday Blessing

In March we had my daughter's 18th Birthday Blessing. It was such a beautiful day.  Friends and family and friends who are family all came and helped us to bless our daughter as she entered adulthood.  

My sister and niece came into town and my mother and the two of them helped me put on the Skaggs girl magic. They made THE BEST chicken salad I have ever tasted.  It had bacon in it.  Nuf said.

 

 If I was a good blogger, I'd post pictures of the process and a great recipe, but clearly I am not a good blogger.  If I was a good blogger, this post would actually be during the month of the event discussed.  

In addition to contributing her amazing chicken salad recipe, Jackie sliced cheese for the cheese tray.

We put out quite a spread.  My dear friend Laurie helped me make the pom poms and the banners.  Having so many people help made it an even more special day.

  

 

We used Micayla's dolls, baby blankets, and special baby clothes as decorations for the table in the entry.  The little girls in attendance got to play with the dolls, which was fun for everyone.

 

I think one of my favorite parts of the day was the diversity of the friends who attended.  

Micayla told how each person attending had impacted her life.  It was really moving to think of how many amazing people God has put in my girl's life.  After that we prayed for her and when my dad prayed and blessed her to join the long line of strong women in her family and spoke of her calling, I about lost it.  Well, actually I did lose it.  I bawled people. 

Then her dad spoke a beautiful blessing over her.  It deserves a post of it's own but here's a picture of him giving it.  Have I mentioned that I am married to an amazing man?

The day of the party was also one of her dearest friends' actual birthday, so we had a cake for her too.

It was truly a blessed day.  I am so grateful for a daughter who brings so much love into our lives.